One crazy group of girls..

My cousin had her bachelorette party at the beau rivage this weekend. It was a great get away. We sat by the pool for a while before we started the night. I knew it was going to be one long and crazy night when we were just sitting around talking and everyone was laughing for no reason. Her and her friends are so funny the keep you laughing and very entertained. Normally if I'm sober I cannot deal with the drunk but last night was different. When Samantha (the bachelorette) was dropped off at the room it was just two of us in there and she had us rolling. I was almost in tears laughing at her crazy stories. When the other two girls came waaay later they were pretty quiet.. I could hear them but as two very drunk girls they did not make too much noise! It was great, I wish everyone could be like that lol! On a happy note I did not get thrown up on! So exciting! Samantha was a great sleeper to share such a SMALL bed until she got up for something and decided she neded her legs to lay on me! But it was all well worth it to know she had such an amazing time! I wish her the best with her up coming wedding I can't wait!

What cancer canNOT do...

I saw this poem in a book at work today and I thought is was a good way to help those suffering from cancer keep their spirits up..

What cancer cannot do

cancer is so limited...
It cannot cripple love.
It cannot shatter hope.
It cannot corrode faith.
It cannot destroy peace.
It cannot kill friendship.
It cannot suppress memeories.
It cannot silence courage.
It cannot invade the soul.
It cannot steal eternal life.
It cannot conquer the spirit.

Just thinking of some angels...

I'm always the strong one. The one who can handle it. The one who wants to be able to pick everyone up but it doesn't mean I don't hurt. It doesn't mean I don't miss the same people. I miss people that have left this earth just as much as everyone else I've just learned to not show it. Sometimes I hurt so bad I don't want to wake up because I'm afraid that today I will remember less of them. I just wish people would realize sometime that I hurt too and that even though I don't say it or talk about it I miss others too.

It's our lives...

My husband and I were married on January 21, 2011. Before we got engaged everyone always asked "when are you going to get married?" We have been married for about 42 days which is less than 2 months. Yes, we were together for a little over 2 years before we got married BUT still we have been married for less than 2 months. Ever since January 21 I have been asked "when are you going to have a baby?" or been told "maybe by this time next year you'll have a baby." Well I say "no. Maybe not" everytime yet people still ask. The real answer is I'm not ready. I'm 23 years old. I haven't gone back to school. We do not own a home. I'm still TOO young. I love kids, everyone that knows me knows that but I am not ready for any. I'm sorry and I hate to hurt anyones feelings that want us to have one so bad but we are not. This is our own life and our own family now so that choice is OURS! It makes me feel like a horrible person when someone ask me and I say I'm not ready. I'm not a selfish person I just feel like I shouldn't rush into it because I don't think it's the right time. Does this make me a bad person?